Irrepressible Paranoia

what description..cant you understand..the above two words!!! Look towards the Sun,and leave the shadows behind. There are too many of them - dark shadows of despair, hollows of pain. Yet there is but one Sun.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Living On a Prayer!!

The phoenix rises yet again, well lets just say nothing pushed me enough out of my sloth-phase until now. A conversation with a friend about inter religious marriage threw back at me some fundamental questions about faith. So why do we believe? and what do we believe in? Does going to a place of worship every now and then make one a believer? Conversely, if one doesn't feel the need to visit a place of worship, does that make him/her a non-believer?

To me, faith is the most personal thing in one's life. It is the source of one's self confidence and hope, whichever way you look at it. It is, as my friend pointed out, a way that helps you discipline yourself. So if in the tenets of your religion (or outside of it), you find a way that gives you all this but is different from how other people look at it, why should you be wrong? Most people are tolerant of people from other religions, aren't they? Then why is it difficult to accept that one's own religion may be interpreted differently by different people?

Another fundamental question arose when the friend in question carried the discussion forward stating that if I got married to someone from outside my religion I will have to choose what religion I want my kids to believe in. I don't see why I need to make a choice. If I married outside my religion, do I suddenyl acquire a new belief system? Does my old belief system cease to exist? How can I pass on or expect my would be to pass on to our kids, belief systems that are alien to us or ones we have just begun to understand? Then again what is wrong in passing on both belief systems ( these could be traditional,personal or both) and letting the kid make her/his own decision?
This brings me back to the first question in this circle of faith (so to speak!)--
how many people really think about why they believe?
How many proactively make decisions?

Well whatever!

An Alternate Therapy

You can think of the offending moments as not passed
And those painful words as never escaped.
You may try and explain away the strangest behaviours
Which could starve-heal the wounds.

Try to file your thoughts to a sub-altern cellar
And turn in the keys to your future nightmares
For a quieter disposal.
If anything in you rebels against such dishonour
Retort angrily by trivializing your emotions
(Try moralizing...it usually does the trick)
And shut them for the night behind a bar of silence.

During post-operative care
You should wear the whitest clothes,
Listen to music
Eat the blandest soup for dinner.
And in choosing an appropriate emotion,
You may have anything as long as it is numb.

Will you do me a favour
And having read all this
With cynical wisdom
Think of it as never written?