Irrepressible Paranoia

what description..cant you understand..the above two words!!! Look towards the Sun,and leave the shadows behind. There are too many of them - dark shadows of despair, hollows of pain. Yet there is but one Sun.

Saturday, April 29, 2006

well.. me untold

I was not sure i knew enough about myself to do this, lesser still how much i dared to bare, im not writing yr name who tagged me...but you knw right..and as fr my stand to let anyone on my blogroll remains the same NO!

oky here i let go..

1.I love the guitar, always have. I can spent hours working out the tabs of my favourites. But, dont listen to any of the hallowed strummers. and also i dnt play on request or perform..its private very private to me

2. While in 5th standard, i scribbled vitriol on the desks of fellow classmates and
never owned up to it when the whole class was questioned.

3. When i was a kid, my biggest ambition was beating my uncle at chess (he was a state champ once). I took a long time, but once achieved, i never lost to him again and also lost interest in chess.

4. A crossroad of my life was when i skipped the trials at the school badminton camp to concentrate on upcoming tests. I have not won a single sport accolade ever since.

5. I have driven bike on 3 feet wide boundary on the bridge at night; never seen anybody else do it!

6. My first crush was so early in school, i cant even remember. We grew up together and I grew out of it.

7.
I love those history books, Wars, religions, conquests, Eras!! was at one time only student in the entire school who knows everything about Russian revolution!!


8.
I hate stretched/bargaining shopping. Period.

9.
My clothes have always have been rotated perfectly until I give it away to charity. Worn out is pretty much my usual look, kurta and jeans is my favorite attire.

10.
I am a left-wing liberal democrat at heart. But, that is no destination, only the motel of choice today. Previous hangouts include communism, hindu nationalism and a stint as a bleeding-heart liberal LOL.

11.
I adore Ruskin Bond, Woodstock, Elliot, frost ; wonder what would have come happened to my thirst if they had not got tired of writing more...

12.
But for the conversation, I can’t figure out what attracts me to a woman. Everytime it has been so different, yet so unique.

13.
Once in secondary school, i dozed off over a book mid-afternoon and neighbours had to help mom and sis to break open the door as i wouldn't wake up to their calls.

14.
We have never had a good chat; no man to man words. Yet, i know my Dad loves me more than anyone else; but life has conspired so, I cant bring myself to return even a fraction of it.

15.
I have very few good friends. But, the ones i make usually grow better with the years and we share all of life's best.

16.
My biggest dream is also my biggest responsibility- to live happy..and to add a prefix to my name just like my mom

17.
The first time i watched an adult movie, in the summer after my secondary school year, i was so ashamed of myself, i ran away from the room midway. Now, looking back, i am ashamed I did that.

18.
Three things i want to do before settling down in life- learn to speak French and Spanish, and learn to dance.


19.
My worst nightmare- someone dear dying in my absence.

20.
I want to raise a boy. My boy will live life just the way he wants, and i will grow up with him all over again.

1 Comments:

Blogger elaine x said...

... thank you.
a glimpse into the life of one so sensitive ...
a fragment of a person so complex ...
20 answers to questions still pending ...
breathing through ask again ...
who am i ...
great blog! thank you for expressing yourself in our universe!
peace & harmony,
elaine
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'

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