Irrepressible Paranoia

what description..cant you understand..the above two words!!! Look towards the Sun,and leave the shadows behind. There are too many of them - dark shadows of despair, hollows of pain. Yet there is but one Sun.

Friday, April 28, 2006

Life is like that!!!

"-When you love somone make sure she/he is the happiest person in the world even if it takes you to part away with a pound of your flesh and even if he/she never cares about that pound of flesh.
All points were excellent ones, Perhaps this one is too, Could you explain why should I part with my pound of flesh (even though I REALLY need to part with many pounds :D) for someone who doesn't appreciate it?" ---- thats what i say

The answer to this question is not as easy as it may seem. I can talk at length about things like love is all about sacrifice, wiping off her tears, being the veil that protects her from all pains and sorrows and blah blah blah. But I dont really feel like saying so coz I am on a dial up here and you know phone bills send your parents BP rocketing out of the stratosphere.

I'll just let you know about a story.... there was a guy lets call him X, there was a gal lets call her Y and then there was a second guy lets call him Z. X and Y lived in almost the same neighbourhood and X loved Y and as usual Y didnt know about it. Before X could tell it to Y, Y came over to X and told him that she loves Z who is X's friend and could he please help her to get close to Z. Now X could have taken 2 routes either he could've shrugged off Y telling her that this is none of his business or he could've helped her to get close to Z although at his own cost. I dont really have enough information on why he did it but I am told that this guy X took the 2nd option. He helped Y come close to Z, then they fell in love and X arranged for their dates. There were times when Z told X that hez going on a date with Y and he has told his mom that hez going over to X's place. Then our Mr. X used to spent 2-2.5 hours alone in the nearest cineplex so as to make sure this lie stays. The story didn't end there, its still on, although X is now out of the scene, he never got slightest of thanks for his efforts from either Y or Z, he never expected one to come and now, with all this behind him he is working his way up his career.

Now the million dollar question is, why did X do that? its somewhat similar to the "why" in the question raised above. Forget about love and lust for a moment, the moot point is why the hell should I do something good for a person who deosnt even care for it?

The reason I feel is that life is not a barter where you do give and take all the time and you dont give unless you've got something in return. You do all this not becasue you expected anything in return from the person you are doing it for but you do it coz the "good guy" inside you ie your soul tells you that this is the right thing to do and in a life where you rarely get a chance to do "right" things this is one chance you should not miss.

Similar is love, when you like someone you dont put any kind of precondition that she/he should also love you. She/he may love n number of other people but thats doesnt matter, does it? what matters is the bottom line and the bottomline is that you love her/him. She might not care for what you do for her right now but then consider had she been in love with you then you would've definitely done this and mebbe much more for her. Then why not now, just coz she deosnt love you... wow! you arent's a selfish little rat are you?

And then fundamentally speaking, I feel that life is all about makng people around you happy. Maybe in the process you might have to shed a few smiles but again I feel that its worth it. For me, personally speaking, seeing a smile on her face is more important than a job at PnG. I also feel that if you keep helping people, making them smile, sharing their sorrows and making their life beautiful they do take notice of it and try to do the same for you.

Its not that I always follow what I've written over here. There are numerous occasions when I feel upset that the people for whom I am working my ass off dont even recognise this fact. I am told by people around me that you are a fool doing the uneccessary for the ungreatful.... you are a bum idiot! and I say ..... " I coulda had class. I coulda been a contender. I coulda been somebody, instead of a bum, which is what I am, let's face it." life's like that only !

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