Dyslexia at its best

Seems like for past few hours i have either had the adjustment disorder, or autistic disorder, or anti-social personality disorder, or avoidant personality disorder or a 'colourworld' combination of these.

Suffice it to say, I've been a little(if u can call that "little" :D) off.
Still though, I am increasingly feeling like the only sane person surrounded by a lot of insane and insensitive people. Wonder if makes me more 'separate' or does it brings in me the more of me. With sanity all elusive around ya, one sure climbs the ladder of maturity with high flux. It brings in a different flavour, a different whiff.
Reminds me of a very nice pal..my sweetheart, my dhakan, my snooty weak-fat ass.. Though smart and brainy, she just never got out of her insanity and finally compromised to live in the whirlpool of the normal mind. Little appreciations from people mattered more to her than her own. Still a Pal of mine, despite the things happened between us which most people will not relate to normalency and the way we..ahmm!! 'I' reacted ..would strictly not follow the normal route(As most of the people who know the story ..straight forward disagreed with the stand i took..losing my dignity and all that...i just say SHUT UP!!take a hike..and who said i am normal :p).. anyways she is light years away from my real self.

Hmm.. i shud some day blog more, not to be read by others but to understand myslf more. Ha!

Then they say that how can two people who lived together(not literally..but dnt mind tht either:D) all the time cant understand each other fully! Cmmon! Do u understand urslf? The ONE with whom u spent every single sec !Do I know who I am and what I want?
Well if I say yes, i may be lying like any other human around me, its almost as if I am wandering through the thick fog that surrounds the people I love and care about.
Can I penetrate the fog?
Do I want to?
Or am I better off alone in my own world?

Btw on a tangent.. Dhakan u are very close to my heart...


...near my lungs, hanging on my food pipe :D ;) luv ya!!