It ends here

i am not here to tell how it all began
but to tell u that how it is all ending
with all those strength i fall down
to touch the ground beneath my feet
with life now shattered and in vain
i can feel the real pain in my head
thinking of all those failures
and ironical things hounding me
it was like ten thousand spoons
when all u need is a knife
i am just 21 and a tyro still
but the fate has never been bright
i did all what i was told to
but things werent so stark
and i had been beating my brains out
trying to impress those powerul figures
to attain a status and a position
which was ironically affronting to think of
and then that idea of a tart
selling all the way for that apple pie
half eaten and half roasted
to smell so offensive and infected
that i sniffled my body all night
i could hear those cries of heart
all through those deluding nights
i want to shun away and run
but there is no escape from ones soul
that repentence those grudges
i had a heavy heart those times
as if i stood nowhere but was
running everywhere with empty hands
begging those full-bodied pesonalities
to make my soul complete and free
and its now too late to ask for
one day when i can be myself
but i holler till my belly ache
i am so young,
so young now
when tomorrow comes i can do it all again
all again?